I've been in silence
In my body,
In my bedroom,
In my brain - I've been screaming,
I've been cursing,
I've been going to insane
Lengths and measures
To ensure you see no trace
Of the angry ugly monster
Behind my smiling face
That's fighting to jump at you straight
Out of my mind
And beat your big fat head
And your ignorant behind
And shout and smash this silence
That's not golden or precious at all
It's just the calm before my sky opens
And storms of words begin to fall

But here I am in front of you saying
My something to say
I'm tired of being disregarded
Pretending everything is OK
I want more, to be more,
I deserve more than your blind eye
So turn around and look at me
Take your gold back, give me time

But it's like, regardless of what I say,
You still have the control of me
You sit back and relax
As you sip on your herbal tea
Changing channels,
Eventually pushing my button to mute

And I'm still speaking, my lips are moving
But to you I just look cute
Nothing more than amusing in my animated state
As my frustration reaches climax
You smile and walk away

And I am silent in my body,
In my bedroom
In my brain - the noise is escalating
To a level of insane
Magnitude, but it's rude
To complain, so sit down
Go back where you came from again,
And don't question, or challenge,
Or disrespect what we believe,
So how you see, is how I'll follow,
That is - blindly,

In this family,
In this house,
Have respect,
Keep your head down,
Don't disgrace,
Don't dishonour,
Don't make a bloody sound,
Keep your opinion to yourself
And your pointless mouth shut
- So how can I go and ask the world
All my whys and whats?

What about the silence of my race in this society
And misrepresentation of our cultural identity
What about the other Oriental kids
With noise in their brains
Who are hidden, who are golden,
Simply submissive, with no names,
Cos there is black, there is white,
And Bhangra and Bollywood is 'in' now too,
But as for the people I share colour with,
I only hear about Chinese food,
Sometimes martial arts and Hello Kitty
Junk breaks through
But that's all folks! For now,
So what are we going to do?

What can we do? But
Go home,
Eat rice,
And swallow shame,
After all, in this society
It is much the same,
The English like East Asians
Also consider it
Rude to complain.